I'm truly sorry for all of this it's not that you aren't good enough for me the poem or song or whatever you wrote in your most recent blog...Made me think I am always going to think of you I would like us to be friends I know you think we can't and I know you hate me. But I feel I have to be with her I think I could love her after all the things I did to Melinda to hurt her, She still wants nothing other then me to be happy. I do feel guilty she cut herself I also feel guilty because I didn't give you a chance which you really do deserve... I will always feel awful about that. I will always feel awful I think we could have been something great had I only met you first... But I think I could really love Melinda truly will this choice will be the right one or at least.. I hope it will be. But you can take some joy in knowing if this thing between I and Melinda ever end's which I hope that it wouldn't I would come crawling back to you begging for you and only you..I want you to know that if you find someone who makes you truly happy that will bring me nothing but joy and it would put a smile on my face... You are a beautiful person. I know you don't think you could be good enough for anyone but trust met you are.I will never forget your Smile Julie never. I hope that we can be friends someday but I know you wont have that and that makes me sad. But if this has to be goodbye then it has to be...As much as I might not want that. If you ever need to talk to me about anything you know how to find me you know my emails and everything. I truly hope that will be ok and I truly hope that one day you will be happy. I will probably never be able to say this enough to you but I am sorry....You probably beileve nothing I have said about you or to you in this email but I mean every word. I hope you can be happy someday Julie and I hope that we could be friends somewhere down the road...
Jason
Jason
I can't do this...... I fucking have strong feelings for him...This isnt fair to me...
Oh god I can't take this......
relieved