So, this whole thing between me and Jason is over.
Or so I believe.
Knowing me, more drama is gonna come around.
'Cause life likes to torture me.

Long story short:

- He doesn't trust me. So I'm apparently a horrible person to trust.
- He doesn't believe in me.
- He doesn't believe that we could work and that we would end up disagreeing all the time.
- He doesn't want to be with me which is why he doesn't want to give "us" another chance.
- He used me.
- He lied to me.
- So, he's just like all the other guys who have fucked me over.

It's so weird...We fit together so well, and work together sooo well...Yet I'm not good enough for him. And I know its not helathy but I think to myself, if I'm not good enough for him (of all people), then I'm not going to be good enough for any other guy.

He said the same thing all the other guys have said... I'm a great girl. I'm fun.. etc etc. All that bull-fucking-shit.
It still makes me wonder.



Godddd..and like...I'm always told not to bottle things up, so I don't. I actually opened up for fucking once in my life, and look where it got me. I even said sorry, and meant it, and that wasn't good enough for him. It screwed me over. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.

I should have just listened to everyone when they said to ditch him completely because he's just looking to screw around with my head. Which is exactly what he did.

Fuck, I'm so pissed off and hurt. What an asshat.

What is it for ?
What is sacred?
In my circle of regrets...
Circle of regrets

Today I'm drawing circles -
In my memory, in the pages of my life...

That's me for a long time
I can't run away... (long time)

These stone tears are falling down on me, all my regrets!
There stone tears are falling down on me, all my regrets! (I don't want this feeling...)

I need more
All I want is to break
My circle of regrets
Circle of regrets

Is there any solution ?
I want to find the way to escape... to go away.

Lacuna Coil - Circle